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Author Topic: Thoughts of the Moment.  (Read 804465 times)

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Re: Thoughts of the Moment.
« Reply #20205 on: May 02, 2012, 02:29:41 PM »

Yeah. I didn't phrase that well did I?

Basically, imagine that every few years you had to backtrack over every dark moment you have, summarising everything that goes wrong with your fragile mind and in what situation. The anxiety, the panic attacks, the self-harm, all that sort of shit.

Now imagine that the reason you're doing this isn't because it's actually time to update your files, but because the government feels that, despite the fact that they've just driven us into the second recession since they were elected through their defecit-cutting policies, the mentally ill should be given 'the dignity of work' and encouraged to join the already incredibly sparse job market.

Now imagine that you also volunteer in mental health institutions and now you're dealing with not just a couple, but twenty or so people who are stressed out because they've got to go through this form. Imagine that the benefits advisor hasn't turned up in two months because she's too swamped with the sheer quantity of people needing to clarify just how bad their mental health is, and whether or not they qualify under the new conditions.

Do I have your permission to feel like shit now?
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Re: Thoughts of the Moment.
« Reply #20206 on: May 02, 2012, 02:44:09 PM »

HOW AM I GOING TO BUILD A 13x19" PORTFOLIO, TWO 9x12" PORTFOLIOS AND GET THE PRINTSLKSDFJOIWE WHY AM I SO SELF LOATHING?


Uuughughuhguhguhgugh at least they're all basic wood stuff things oh god I gotta. How am I/ What do you even?


How do you even determine what represents you? Can't I just use cool hand drawn type? What is air?
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Re: Thoughts of the Moment.
« Reply #20207 on: May 02, 2012, 03:07:02 PM »

Naff lately I've been having trouble reading anything you type.
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Re: Thoughts of the Moment.
« Reply #20208 on: May 02, 2012, 03:12:19 PM »

WHAT DO YOU MEAN?


It'S NOT LIKE I'M HAVINg A BREAKDOWN OR ANYTHING


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Re: Thoughts of the Moment.
« Reply #20209 on: May 02, 2012, 03:26:35 PM »

Sorry to hear about that.  I've never built a portfolio before so I can't hand out any advice on that, but as for breakdowns, I am well versed in.

If you're seriously having a breakdown of some sort (I'm assuming it's legitimate because you don't seem like the type of person that would take on talking about breakdowns as a normal personality quip) the best advice I can give is to talk to somebody professional about it.  Or shit even semi-professional.  Point being, it really does help.

But that's just like, my opinion man.
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Re: Thoughts of the Moment.
« Reply #20210 on: May 02, 2012, 03:34:33 PM »

Well last week when I started crying for no reason while studying I just stopped studying and cooked food for a few hours before coming back and everything was ok. So tomorrow, I'll probably cook food for a few hours and laugh a while and it'll be ok.

It'll be ok.

HAHAHA.

I JUST NEED TO MAKE SURE I PASS MATH TO GO TO THIS AWESOME SCHOOL AND HAVE A PORTFOLIO TO GET A REAL JOB AND STUFF HAHAHAHAHA. Nah it's cool.


I'm cool.


Just gotta breath. Happy place. I'm cool. This is why I drink alcohol.
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Re: Thoughts of the Moment.
« Reply #20211 on: May 02, 2012, 04:25:40 PM »

Is there anything we humble guys could do to help?
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Re: Thoughts of the Moment.
« Reply #20212 on: May 02, 2012, 04:38:36 PM »

NAH! I just need to sob on a forum and I really hate fanboys right now.  Lots of creepers on there. LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS.

Somehow, a forum of trolls is a more comforting place at times.
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Re: Thoughts of the Moment.
« Reply #20213 on: May 02, 2012, 04:40:01 PM »

I'm not a troll..........................................
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Re: Thoughts of the Moment.
« Reply #20214 on: May 02, 2012, 04:50:59 PM »


Do I have your permission to feel like shit now?

Yes, Jesus. That sounds like fucking hell.
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Re: Thoughts of the Moment.
« Reply #20215 on: May 02, 2012, 05:00:29 PM »

I'm not a troll..........................................
............................ TN is not a troll.
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Re: Thoughts of the Moment.
« Reply #20216 on: May 02, 2012, 05:31:58 PM »

* Texas Ninja hugs Naff.
Honestly if you still keep feeling overwhelmed find the health clinic at your campus. My University actually let psych students give free counseling so there might be something similar somewhere close. You might want to look up the signs of a panic attack because you might end up having one soon. Try to work out a schedule for all this stuff that won't make it feel like you're having to do it all RIGHT NOW!!!!  I hate math with the fury of a thousand suns (I had to start college with remedial math) so good luck there.

Is the porfolio issue that you don't feel any of your work is good or you don't know which of your work best determines your individual style?

Vordus you don't need our permission to feel like shit, we know you have issues. Yes, worded differently that is much harder.
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Re: Thoughts of the Moment.
« Reply #20217 on: May 02, 2012, 05:36:57 PM »

I might do that TN. Thanks. :3

I know at the end of the semester (Well after my cousin leaves because he's in town during FINALS which was a OH OUR BAD BAD TIMING THERE) I'll be rewarding myself with a very long talkin' to no one ME1 - ME3 run since I finally own ME3.
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Re: Thoughts of the Moment.
« Reply #20218 on: May 02, 2012, 06:26:30 PM »

I hope everything works out for both of you. :c Good luck with the government Vordus and I guess try your best to distract yourself/give yourself time to relax and not worry about everything you're putting down on the forms (obviously easier said than done), but know you got people around who care about you and what happens to you. And definitely do what TN said w/r/t visiting the health clinic on campus Naff. There's a shitton of stuff on campus that nobody takes advantage of cause they don't know about it so there's a good chance that either they can help you out or at least point you to someone who can. Try not to let all the shit get to you guys (again easier said than done) and you know, remember there are people who care, even if it's just on the internet.

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Re: Thoughts of the Moment.
« Reply #20219 on: May 02, 2012, 06:27:49 PM »

I might do that TN. Thanks. :3

I know at the end of the semester (Well after my cousin leaves because he's in town during FINALS which was a OH OUR BAD BAD TIMING THERE) I'll be rewarding myself with a very long talkin' to no one ME1 - ME3 run since I finally own ME3.
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